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Life moves on

Journal Entry: Thu Jun 12, 2008, 2:30 PM
  • Mood: Neutral
  • Listening to: Narnia :-P
  • Reading: The house that Jack built
  • Watching: Narnia
  • Playing: ...
  • Eating: Sandwichs
  • Drinking: Coke
Figured it was time to change the last journal...well things have gone by and wounds have gradually healed, now comes the time to find his favourite spot and let the wind take his ashes to a better place.

Now i will pull my life back together and begin my studies again and finish them...and try to become a better Wiccan.

Death of a friend..my Boxer Dog

Journal Entry: Fri Mar 7, 2008, 5:12 PM
  • Mood: Sadness
  • Drinking: Breezer
Ben the Boxer

Well today i had to make the worst decision of my life...I had to ask for my dog to be put down. He was 10 years old and my baby boxer, we shared some great times and he was my guardian.

I miss him so bad, how do you move on with your life when the one thing which was constant is gone?

My best friend sleeps now...I just hope he understands why i had to do it, he was in so much pain and i couldn't live with letting him be like that. I made the decision and let him peacefully slip away, he took my heart with him that day...i feel nothing anymore i am empty inside.

I want my dog back :-(

Latest Dream

Journal Entry: Mon Oct 22, 2007, 3:16 PM
Friends dream :-)

Boeing plane with lots people (crowd) in the daytime. Captain said they were coming into land and then nose dived the plane into the ocean...The plane then moved underwater through the ocean before coming to a stop...people were screaming once it stopped still in the ocean but just above the surface so they could get out onto a walkway they then arrived at a friend's house (school friend) but it felt like her house. The house was deep Green house and it was a semi detached. In the plane journey she felt sick and very scared, she woke feeling confused

Major Symbol

Plane – To dream that a plane crashes, suggests that you have set overly high and unrealistic goals for yourself. Your goals may be too high and are impossible to realize. You are in danger of having it come crashing down. Alternatively, your lack of confidence, self-defeating attitude and self-doubt toward the goals you have set for yourself is represented by the crashing airplane; you do not believe in your ability to attain those goals. Loss of power and uncertainty in achieving your goals are also signified

Minor Symbol

Crowd – To dream that you are in or part of a crowd, signifies that you need to make some space for yourself. You need solitude to reflect on a situation at hand and recharge your energy. Consider also the familiar phrase of "going along with the crowd" which implies conformity and lack of individuality.

Ocean – To see an ocean in your dream, represents the state of your emotions and feelings. It is indicative of some spiritual refreshment, tranquillity and renewal. To dream that you are travelling across the ocean signifies new found freedom and independence. You are showing great courage. To see water in your dream, symbolizes your unconscious and your emotional state of mind. Water is the living essence of the psyche and the flow of life energy. It is also symbolic of spirituality, knowledge, healing and refreshment.

Underwater – To dream that you are underwater, suggests that you are feeling overcome with emotions and are in need of greater control in your life. You may be in over your head regarding some situation.

Screaming – To dream that you or someone is yelling, represents repressed anger that need to be expressed.


Friend – To see your childhood friend in your dream, signifies regression into your past where you had no responsibilities and things were much simpler and carefree.

You may want to escape the pressures and stresses of adulthood. Consider the relationship you had with this friend and the lessons that were learned.

Alternatively, the childhood friend may be suggesting that you have been acting in a childish manner and you need to start acting like an adult.

House – To see a house in your dream, represents your own soul and self.

Green – Dark green indicates materialism, cheating, deceit, and/or difficulties with sharing. You need to balance between your masculine and feminine attributes.

Sick – To dream that you or others are sick denotes discordance and trouble in your life. It may also signal a part of you that needs to be healed, either physically or mentally. Perhaps you are wallowing in your own self-pity. You need to quit feeling sorry for yourself.

Scared – To dream that you are scared indicates that you are experiencing self-doubt and feelings of incompetence. You may be feeling a lack of control. Anger often masquerades as fear, so also consider issues about which you are angry about in your waking life.

Conclusion

The major symbol sets out the theme of the dream and from the symbol of the plane you can see how you are struggling with problems or goals in your life at the moment. This is in part to setting yourself targets which you couldn't possibly meet, slow down and assess each part of your life and pull back some and lower your expectations. To have been within a crowd of people on the plane shows that you need to set quiet time for yourself to relax and contemplate each aspect of yourself and your life and make achievable goals and plans to see real changes in your life. You said people were screaming cause the plane was crashing shows distress around you and anger in yourself maybe aimed at yourself because you lack the confidence and even doubt yourself and your abilities, this is why your goals seem to be to high for you cause your not willing to believe you can achieve what you need too. Again the fact you felt scared and sick in the dream shows this self doubt again, it is showing that you need to take time to repair yourself and get the confidence back you once had, you have been hurt or damaged in the past which has caused you to doubt all you are capable of, time to take a moment of reflection and pull together your strengths and push out the doubts you have stored inside yourself.


The symbols of the ocean and being underwater again are heavily based towards feeling overcome with your own emotions, you need to take time to heal the water is a symbol of healing and rejuvenation and its trying to tell you to slow down and look after what's important "you", when you sort out your demons so to speak you will again get a grasp on your life and move it in the direction you wish and when this happens your goals will no longer seem so out of reach.


The symbols of your school friend, house and dark green show that in a sense you are hiding away from your feelings almost childlike pushing thoughts and feelings away in the hope they will disappear. Finally with all this said these symbols show your inner soul and the colour shows the attributes of your soul, so as you can see difficulty opening up to people might come from this lack of confidence in your own abilities, as for the other attributes I couldn't comment this would be for you to judge.

  • Mood: Neutral
  • Listening to: running scared
  • Reading: Magic Kingdom for Sale
  • Watching: running scared
  • Playing: Frontlines
  • Eating: Pringles
  • Drinking: Coke

Dreams

Journal Entry: Sun Oct 21, 2007, 4:11 PM
I am a qualified Dream Analyst and i felt i would start sharing my dreams and translations through my journal...this is one of my first translations.

Scorpion Dream

I used to have this dream as a child, it reoccurred a few times in my life and was always the same dream over and over with no changes. It involved me eating a scorpion for lunch and drinking the poison from its tail for a drink. This was always in school in the canteen, the scorpion was alive in my lunchbox and I would kill and eat it while others around me paid no attention but carried on there normal dinner of sandwiches and juice.

Major Symbol

a) Scorpion - To see a scorpion in your dream, represents a situation in your waking life which may have been painful or hurtful. It is also indicative of destructive feelings, "stinging" remarks, bitter words and/or negative thoughts being expressed by or aimed against you. Your dream forewarns of a self-destructive and self-defeating path. The scorpion is also a symbol of death and rebirth. You need to get rid of the old and make room for something new.

Minor Symbols

b) Poison - To dream that you consume poison, implies that you are introducing something into yourself that is harmful to your well-being. This may be feelings of bitterness, jealousy or other bad feelings that is consuming you.

c) Eating - To dream that you are eating with others denotes prosperous undertakings, personal gain, and joyous spirits.

d) School - To dream that you are in school, signifies feelings of inadequacy and childhood insecurities that have never been resolved. It may relate to anxieties about performance and abilities. You may also be going through a "spiritual learning" experience. If you are still in school and dream about school, then it will naturally serve as a backdrop to your dream world. Alternatively, a dream that takes place in school may be a metaphor for the lessons that you are learning from your waking life

e) Ignored - To dream that you are ignoring someone or being ignored, represents some aspect of yourself which you are not paying enough attention to. Alternatively, it may reflect your real waking experiences of being ignored by that person.

In conclusion I can only assume this dream was giving me a message about something which was occurring in my life during this time. After analysing the symbols in the dream I can see it shows during this time I was possibly suffering hurtful times which were being represented by the scorpion. When analysing the extra symbols I can combine the poison, eating and ignored together to conclude i was harming myself in some way unconsciously. I found being ignored inverted the positive points of the eating and I was not paying enough attention to a specific aspect of my life, which was stopping me achieving the positive aspects of the eating symbol. The school symbol could be either I was in school during this period in my life or maybe it was another way of showing the insecurities in my life which were causing this harm to my physical and mental being.

  • Mood: Neutral
  • Listening to: Nothing
  • Reading: Magic Kingdom for Sale
  • Watching: Ben chewing his foot
  • Playing: Frontlines
  • Eating: Pringles
  • Drinking: Coke